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sometimes i go downstairs

and open the fridge

just to look inside

because i hope  something new will appear

sometimes i write letters

and rip them up later

because that's how i feel when someone

says they love me, then they leave me

sometimes i stand up 

and make up a song

because that's how my brain works

sometimes i cut my fingernails extra short

because i like the feel of pain 

everytime i touch something

sometimes i go to the park

and just sit there for a few hours

because i like to see children re-unite

sometimes i look at the screen 

and maybe see something i've never seen

because that's what i hope for in every person i meet

sometimes i paint my nails

then i clean the polish off

just because i like the way it feels 

on my fingers

sometimes i hum when people talk to me

so i can barely hear them

because i think that's what it would be like if 

i wore a hearing aid

sometimes i hold my breath

for as long as i can 

because at times i wish i was a fish 

sometimes i do things.

sometimes i don't.