Dubiety

mango scented lotion

vanilla conditioner 

aloe vera lip balm

ruby red nail polish

fitted black dress

red high heels

black eyeliner

and a beautiful smile

i remember this day so well

it was the day i met you

the day when all my pain 

seemed to have vanished

when i was in your presence

the day i promised to never 

forget you

your caramel colored skin 

complimented by your long kinky hair

all i could think of was your eyes

those eyes.

i could get lost in them for days 

in a midnight summer's haze

i could wake up in the morning 

and feel worthless 

and just look in your eyes and 

from that moment forth 

know i have a purpose

you were my life

but i was not yours

you had other options 

and i was one of many 

you hurt me so bad 

i promised to never love again

but somehow i couldn't forget you

the first time i said I loved you 

the first time we made love

the first time our lips were introduced to each other

all the memories we've share

our relationship was much more than an option 

it was real

and i refuse to move on 

believing you don't think about me every waking day.

so every single night,

i will write one memory of you 

to keep it clear in sight

i still need you.